I've touched on this on previous blogs but lately I've been feeling down about being single and couldn't explain why it was suddenly bothering me so much. Over the past couple of days I've begun to realise that its being around certain people thats making me feel this way. After months of trying to cheer people up about their relationship status I seem to have got it into my head that it is really bad to be single and that I'm in a bad place. Realistically, yeah I'd love to be in a relationship but its not essential that I just settle for second best just for my status. I hate seeing people upset and am always the one with the shoulder to cry on but I sometimes wonder why I bother. I've really run out of pity and just want to enjoy myself now. So now I'm wide awake to it all. I'm not paying attention to any drama in anyones life at the moment. I have a week off work in which I intend on chilling/sorting things out in the flat/enjoying my bed!
I've spent tonight with my best mate/flatmate Lu and for once it was just the two of us for most of the night and we had a great laugh - no drama, no arguments, no having to try to cheer each other up - just drinking, laughing and dancing stupidly to silly songs. We just ended the night by making a concoction of random things we could find in the freezer and topping it with a kind of semi fried egg so if there are no blogs for a while, send someone round to lift my corpse from my bed! although realistically, I could just be sleeping. My eyes are getting heavy and my pillows are looking mighty fine at the moment... nighty night
2008-02-17 @ 09:30