PLEASE HURRY UP AND END THIS DAY!

I'm trying to type kinda 1-handed while act like a victim. Was attacked by a dog last night which has never ever happened to me before and has really messed with my head. I've grown up with dogs and have never ever been scared of dogs or had any problems with them in the past but I ended up going back to someones house last night (more in an attempt to get over my obsession with someone but we won't go into that) and this dog was there. He seemed fine at first and was happy for me to give him a fuss and then he suddenly turned and gripped into my hand and shaking his head. It was all very quick but I was completely stunned as it was so unexpected. Yesterday had already been a weird day as I'd woke from weird dreams including a dream about Tyson who was getting put to sleep yesterday which I woke up crying to. It was weird but I dreamt I could hear his thoughts and he was saying that he was tired and he knew it was time to go so it was strange when my mum told me that when he was in the vets he just lay there and put up no resistance like he was tired and knew it was his time - again I was sobbing away to myself. So last night, after the dog decided to eat me, I got it in my head that he had sensed that Tyson had been put to sleep and started blubbing to some complete stranger. Reading the last couple of posts on here, you'd think that I was someone that showed their emotions regularly but I'm the complete opposite. Not many people have seen me cry - I think its more because I don't know how to act when others cry around me so I keep my emotions bottled up when around others.

Anyway I'll move on now. No more depressing posts from here-on in!

Theres a delivery guy that comes into my work each day at 3.30 (not that I time his entrance or anything) and I think he is really cute. I've been eyeing him up for months now and occasionally get the chance to talk to him (like at xmas when I asked him where my present was and he told me his sack was already empty). Well, the latest is that it looks like he might be a local - one of my trainees spotted him late yesterday. I'm determined to get the guts to remind him that its valentines next week and if he's a good delivery man he'll deliver a card to me! (or I might just hide behind my desk as normal). What is wrong with me lately? I feel like I'm becoming some kind of desperado!

Anyways, its FRIDAY. I need to shower and get something to eat before work and then its THE WEEEEEEKEENNNNNDDDDD Yippeeee!