Dear Lord how fast has this week gone? Can't believe its Sunday already and back to work tomorrow. I am currently searching the internet for a new Liver while mine is being drained at the Smirnoff Distillery. I've had a great week this week. I think 6 days of drinking is a bit much though so I'm going to lay off for a while...

I went out on Friday expecting it to be a bit dead and possibly coming home early (Coventry isn't exactly the Hub of entertainment on a Friday), however it was really busy. Lots of drink later and Lu & I decided that we were Disney characters and flew on our magic (invisible) carpet while the DJ played "A Whole New World".

Then last night, Liam held a "Murder Mystery" night - it was great of him to go to the effort and it was a really good night, even though not everyone that promised to turn up, turned up (grr). I have to say, we all looked rather dashing in our 60's gear! I'll post photo's on here at some point.

Its really weird - this week has seen a shift in my confidence. I can't explain why, but I've had days of feeling really confident and have been given numbers by around 5 different people! Very unusual but over the past couple of nights I've had ladies trying to "convert" me! The one last night was stunning too - a few more cheeky ones and I might have been tempted!

Plans for the week then - sleep, sleep, sleep, oh and maybe some more sleep. I suppose I better go to work inbetween them.

Be good my little sunbeams x

Now I know what I've been missing. Daytime TV!
I've been loving my days off this week - totally unproductive and lazy. I've become an expert at Countdown and managed to get all the numbers games and even the conundrum (which the contestants didn't even get!).
At this rate I might have to nip to the shop for a bottle of Strongbow and a packet of Cheesy Wotsits. I'm typing this quickly while the ads are on. Ice cream is coming out and Deal or No Deal is about to start. No wonder there are so many unemployed people on benefits - this is great!

I've touched on this on previous blogs but lately I've been feeling down about being single and couldn't explain why it was suddenly bothering me so much. Over the past couple of days I've begun to realise that its being around certain people thats making me feel this way. After months of trying to cheer people up about their relationship status I seem to have got it into my head that it is really bad to be single and that I'm in a bad place. Realistically, yeah I'd love to be in a relationship but its not essential that I just settle for second best just for my status. I hate seeing people upset and am always the one with the shoulder to cry on but I sometimes wonder why I bother. I've really run out of pity and just want to enjoy myself now. So now I'm wide awake to it all. I'm not paying attention to any drama in anyones life at the moment. I have a week off work in which I intend on chilling/sorting things out in the flat/enjoying my bed!

I've spent tonight with my best mate/flatmate Lu and for once it was just the two of us for most of the night and we had a great laugh - no drama, no arguments, no having to try to cheer each other up - just drinking, laughing and dancing stupidly to silly songs. We just ended the night by making a concoction of random things we could find in the freezer and topping it with a kind of semi fried egg so if there are no blogs for a while, send someone round to lift my corpse from my bed! although realistically, I could just be sleeping. My eyes are getting heavy and my pillows are looking mighty fine at the moment... nighty night

Had a great weekend (Again!). Went to my mate Chris's 30th Party and it was really good - his friends are all so sweet and were not ashamed to express their love for him in a video message his wife and best mate had planned out and filmed over the past few months. Was a great turn-out and such a lovely bunch of people. I hope my party follows suit! Followed this by another night out at Rainbows - Am quite impressed that I wasn't as wasted as I thought I might be. Well done me!

Was talking to my mate earlier about goals in life and realised that I am actually living out a few of my dreams already. When I was at school I used to often daydream about what I wanted and I've actually reached some of my stars. On the school bus journey we used to drive past a big blue shiney mirror glass building and I always wanted to work there - lo and behold, I've worked there for nearly 6 years in total. I also wanted to live in one of the apartments with balconies overlooking the street just around the corner from the shiny building - you guessed it, I live there now! Yes, they may have been small dreams and something that realistically I didn't make a concerted effort to reach but they've happened. Its not the best job and its not the best flat but hey, its working for me and however small these goals may have been, I've reached them. Now to work on the other goal about meeting an insatiable rich man....

PLEASE HURRY UP AND END THIS DAY!

I'm trying to type kinda 1-handed while act like a victim. Was attacked by a dog last night which has never ever happened to me before and has really messed with my head. I've grown up with dogs and have never ever been scared of dogs or had any problems with them in the past but I ended up going back to someones house last night (more in an attempt to get over my obsession with someone but we won't go into that) and this dog was there. He seemed fine at first and was happy for me to give him a fuss and then he suddenly turned and gripped into my hand and shaking his head. It was all very quick but I was completely stunned as it was so unexpected. Yesterday had already been a weird day as I'd woke from weird dreams including a dream about Tyson who was getting put to sleep yesterday which I woke up crying to. It was weird but I dreamt I could hear his thoughts and he was saying that he was tired and he knew it was time to go so it was strange when my mum told me that when he was in the vets he just lay there and put up no resistance like he was tired and knew it was his time - again I was sobbing away to myself. So last night, after the dog decided to eat me, I got it in my head that he had sensed that Tyson had been put to sleep and started blubbing to some complete stranger. Reading the last couple of posts on here, you'd think that I was someone that showed their emotions regularly but I'm the complete opposite. Not many people have seen me cry - I think its more because I don't know how to act when others cry around me so I keep my emotions bottled up when around others.

Anyway I'll move on now. No more depressing posts from here-on in!

Theres a delivery guy that comes into my work each day at 3.30 (not that I time his entrance or anything) and I think he is really cute. I've been eyeing him up for months now and occasionally get the chance to talk to him (like at xmas when I asked him where my present was and he told me his sack was already empty). Well, the latest is that it looks like he might be a local - one of my trainees spotted him late yesterday. I'm determined to get the guts to remind him that its valentines next week and if he's a good delivery man he'll deliver a card to me! (or I might just hide behind my desk as normal). What is wrong with me lately? I feel like I'm becoming some kind of desperado!

Anyways, its FRIDAY. I need to shower and get something to eat before work and then its THE WEEEEEEKEENNNNNDDDDD Yippeeee!

Today is moods day. I'm not in a great mood so am not going to whinge *but* how can a day be full of so many different moods? So far today (from Midnight) I've counted: Annoyance, Anger, content, knackered, self-congratulatory, pride, boredom, jealousy, happy, giggly, horny, confused, sad and tearful.
Don't be running to hide the sharp objects from me just yet, the last couple are because I've found out the family dog is getting put to sleep tomorrow at the grand age of 14 (98 in dog years). It hasn't come as a great shock as I was looking after him over xmas and had a feeling he was literally on his last legs then but nothing had been mentioned since then about him being poorly so I was sobbing when I was told earlier. He was such a well-behaved beautiful dog - I remember how proud I was of him when we first got him because so many people wanted him and stopped us in the street offering money for him cos he was so cute

Anyway, I'm not going to dwell on this. If there is a dog heaven, he'll gain his doggy-wings and I'm sure Ricky, Dinky (don't ask!) and Paddy will be there to meet him

So now I think I'm going to take a bath and find a better mood to end the day on....

P.S. This post decided it wanted to stay a draft for a few hours so here it is a little late!

Wow what a mad weekend. Had the end of last week off work so I took advantage of this and decided to get considerably merry on Thursday night. This was followed by the school reunion on Friday night. I wasn't really worried about what people thought of me or anything like that, I was more worried about what conversations to have and would we all just be stood around awkwardly with excuses being made to leave. It ended up being a great success! It was strange seeing faces I haven't seen for 14 years and seeing people married with kids etc.. I had such a laugh that night and we've agreed that we're going to arrange another one in the Summer so I'm looking forward to that.

Then we moved on to Saturday night...you guessed it, Mr Smirnoff entertained me again for the evening. You know, I think I'm beginning to fall for his charms. Whenever he entertains me, I get all giddy and happy and I fall asleep with him - its the perfect relationship. Finally met Luan's mate Lisa who turned out to be lovely - so funny and mad - she fit in perfectly with our group! AND my head nuzzles between her breasts perfectly!

I think I might be making a desperate attempt at clinging onto my youth as I treated myself to a new lip piercing. I've wanted it done (just a tiny ball on the bottom left of my lip) for ages so finally got it done on Saturday. No swelling! I'm so down with the kids its unbelievable...whack daddy mack, innit tho.